A look into my mind.
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Warning: This is quite literally a list of what I want to do in my life. Nothing else, don’t read on if you were expecting a sort of story out of this.
The past few days I have been thinking about some things I want to experience. I know a lot of it is impossible and probably suicide. But hell…..I still wanna do it. Just for the experience.
I want to be a teenager in the 90’s (as in turn 14 in 1991 and live through everything), I wanna visit Silent Hill and see all the “monsters”, I want to play well in a live concert of all the music I like, I wanna be a famous musician, I wanna try every sexual thing that has ever appealed to me, I wish to be able to draw amazing (to me) pictures just from my minds eye, I want to try every drug and not be addicted just for the experience, I want to change sexes for a month to see how woman have it, I wanna be a “real” cowboy (Wild West), I wanna travel in space, I want to be a cyber punk, I want to be a 90’s grunge kid for the experience, I want to speak my mind to everyone and not be looked at any different, I want to time travel, I want to be able to predict the future, I want to know what déjà vu really is, I want to live in a dilapidated building, I want to fight but for it not to have any consequences, I want to revolutionize today’s music to my liking, I want to be an amazing guitarist and drummer, I want to bend reality, I want to break the laws of nature/physics, I want to live a life of danger, (I wanna be a New York Ranger) :P, I want to break the rules of my current life, I want to have a “secret” house I could go and do what ever in that was just for me, I want to live through a zombie outbreak, I want to be an archaeologist, I want to see beautiful ruins of the past, I want to explore the worlds hidden secrets, I want to do things I see in movies, I want to be a complete individual to truly make sense of the word “originality”, I want to destroy things when I like, I want to discover the mystery of my favourite conspiracies, I want to step into the realities of my favourite cartoons/animes and live the main characters life, I wish for complete enlightenment of all my wonders, I want to see both sides of the argument, I want to see what happens after life, I want to die by the age of fourty or fifty, I want to kill people I dislike, I want to reanimate or re-live certain memories, I want to live in a “Matrix” type world (Matrix movie that is) and be aware of the “realities” I can bend, I want to be philosophical.
But most of all I want to “live” in the sense of the word. I can do whatever I please.
I will not exaggerate on some points in this list. There is a reason I left some of it brief.
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lol yeah i am reading: the ramayana (novel-format version), the perks of being a wallflower (again), the plays of aristophanes (hilarious, theyre centuries old and the jokes are still funny), beginner's greek, and rereading the complete works of shakespeare (i love my copy, its antique and leather-bound :D )
(god, I am such a geek...)
zomg yuss.
gah i need to start reading more again... lol im reading like 5 books atm, but very slowly by my standards.
I want to know everything I want to know, I want to be a ninja and learn how to float (i've had a lot of dreams involving me floating and it feels interesting), I want to go in outer space, I want to discover a previously unknown and incredibly advanced culture on an unknown continent, I want to go into outer space, I want to feel what its like to be on drugs or to be drunk, but not have the guilt or addiction I know I would have for doing so (long long story from the past on why that is), I want to know what it is I want with my life, I want someone to love me, I want to be a guy, I want a child without pregnancy or childbirth (im dreadfully scared of both), I want to learn everything I can about art, I want to meet leonardo da vinci, I want to go back in time and find out everything about history and answer everything that cannot be answered, I want to find a crystal skull (look it up, theres an interesting myth behind them) I want to be greek, I want to find peace, I want to be completely happy, I want to travel everywhere in the world, I want to be able to see into others' minds so i know how they think as well as what they really think of me, I want to be a successful archeologist and classicist, I want to learn how to speak japanese, ancient greek, latin, french, modern greek, chinese, and I want to relearn how to speak polish... theres a lot.
+1.
i should! I think I will when I get bored lol. I'll tell you about it when I do ^__^
and omg, I love conspiracy/mystery books, too! especially stuff that can be tied into actual history, like stuff about the nights templar, illuminati, secret societies. Its like catnip for me :D
Haha, I haven't really read that much into those things. Recently though I have had an acute interest in Demonology. Not experimenting in it, but just learning about it. It is very interesting. :D