yes, I know all my confusing shit is about boys but bear with me... I'm still trying to figure out this whole "dating" thing even though I've been at it for about three years now.
so, boyfriend? we broke up. ex boyfriend? we had sex- hours after he had sex with a younger, not as good looking, alcoholic bimbo whose obsessed with him and is in love with him, and he doesn't want to be with her yet he has sex with her. it's kind of fucked up, and I was in no place to deal with this sort of thing (he told me about it after we had sex, of course).
then my other ex who was the longest relationship I had was here when I got back (staying with friends) with his current girlfriend whose ridiculously needy and completely socially inept, and he was tipsy and kept on looking at me and she kept on getting upset, and... yeah.
I need my mind to stop being a huge mess of emotions and complications. I need all of this shit to stop falling into my lap and for things to be normal for once... ah, as my boss says, this is probably Karmic shit since I haven't really done anything in my lifetime to really deserve all this ridiculous shit. who knows. meh. here's a small prayer that things will become normal soon.
