what made you feel multiple conflicting confusing as fuck emotions today?

[noentusuke1]

okay so I am starting this because there really isn't a thread for this kind of feeling and I feel it all the time.

like how I'm happy because the guy I like more than I have ever liked anyone before knows how I feel about him and I have talked to him about it and now everything is clear, and I spent this weekend camping with him at Letchworth State Park for the World AtlAtl Association's yearly gathering, and walked and talked with him and threw atlatl for the first time and we're planning on starting a team, and we made a bunch of other awesome plans.

... also, He started dating someone recently which is what prompted him to tell me that he was aware of my feelings. and she was at letchworth with us too.

yeah, fml. trying to be the nice friend and being a good person just all around sucks balls. I wish I was selfish, and that somehow I could get what I want- aka a chance at being with the person who is, out of all the people I have met in my life, the best partner I could imagine for myself and more.

fuck. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. FUCK

[MiladyAlise]

I met a guy who I went home with, he fucks around with me on and off, says he likes me, but "can't be in a relationship right now"
He gets jealous when I'm with other guys, but doesn't want to be with me, and we keep falling into the same pattern.
But we'd be great together. We have tons in common, we mesh great, and even he admits he's stupid for passing up the chance. I think he's hoping I'll still be around later, but I'm not the type to just wait... or maybe I am?

Then I finally met a great guy who makes me forget about the jerk, and we get along great, but he lived 8 and a half hours away and nothing can happen. So I'm back to the pattern with the jerk, and now I also flirt with a guy too far away for either of us to act on it.
He's really small town. Loves where he is. Not even that little "I wish I could live in the city" And I am definitely a city person. Le sigh.

I'm just sick of waiting. And Waiting.
I'm not looking for Mr. Right. I'm too young. Just right for right now.

Ugh. Being single. Not a fan right now. but I suppose it's better than being with guy # 1, who's just confusion.

[burning_sands]

are we sure this isn't a 'how members of the sex[es] we are attracted to make us feel' thread?

So I'm friends with this guy. Let's call him Andrew. We became friends last fall semester when we were in a very dumb class together. The two of us, with another guy, whom we'll call Jack, formed a trifecta that basically existed to whinge about how sucky this class/the people in it were. It's almost a year later and we still hang out on a decently regular basis.

The ways in which we interact with each other are basically summed up thusly: Andrew has a gf, Jack has mental problems and I have breasts.

I was told tonight that it's not that Andrew's gf doesn't like me because she thinks I'm trying to get with her boyfriend. It's that she doesn't like me because she thinks [and is perhaps, sadly, right in thinking so] that her boyfriend is trying to get with me. She thinks this not even because he and I flirt, because we largely don't, but because he spends a decent amount of time talking to me when I'm around, even if she is as well.

And I have to say that I'm sorta pissed off because the distinction seems unfair and undeserved to both Andrew and I, but especially to me. (I feel it unnecessary yet important to note that I've known him longer than her). I have no interest in a relationship beyond friendship with Andrew, let alone sexytimes. Our tastes are too different. And he is of the sort where we would never be able to go back to what it was before. We have talked about this months back, which probably made things worse for him but made them a lot simpler for me.

Of course, the girl who is dating Andrew finds it difficult to believe that anyone wouldn't want her bf and also I guess understands that Andrew finds me attractive? And so I am the one doing wrong!


So in short, I am angry at her for being angry with me, I am angry with Andrew for being non communicative with his lady on the topic of me, I am stuck between frustration and selfish giddy teehees that Andrew likes me enough to cause this much grief and I'm quite upset with myself for being female. Also, I am trying to hit on freshmen boys and Andrew is a year older than me. Clearly not the age range I'd like to focus my time/attention on right now! 

It happens.

[galantee]

I happen to have cleared up all my "multiple conflicting confusing as fuck emotions" Friday night. It's comforting to find that you're on exactly the same page with someone, whatever that page is.

[neoeno]

Always. Always.

I just ignore the conflict. Before too long it goes away.

Isn't 'faithful' a strange word?

[noentusuke1]

b_s, you are correct. this is basically a "confusion which the sex[es] we are attracted to cause us" thread. because who better than they to confuse the fuck out of everyone, right?

the problem with me is that there is no conflict. things are somewhat clear; me and him are good friends. we are working on a gajillion projects together because he is, well, amazing, and has many skills all of which I value and would like to learn from. i do however worry that I will cause him conflicting emotions because we get on so well and I know for sure that I do love him. very much so. I should do the "smart thing" and take a break from his presence so things can become normalized for all of us but it is very hard, especially since there are a bunch of things I am working on with him that quite honestly, I do not want to take a break from. We're going to the grocery store tomorrow and I am hoping, praying, that he will not invite anyone else along (although that is the usual courtesy since the grocery store is a 20 minute drive away...) so we can talk even more because it is so fucking hard to get him alone. either gail (his girlfriend) is sticking on him like a leech or he is with his friends. or both. But there is more talking I absolutely have to do and I hope he understands that....

last night, I was talking about how I had sat at the campsite and the WAA (world atlatl association) meeting and thought about how things would change and I was wondering what would be different with all of us. My hair is now a pixie cut essentially, and I mentioned how I wondered how long my hair would be by then and I was talking about what it looked like when it was longer, and he looked me straight in the eye and he said "you would look beautiful with long hair. you do now, but you would even more so if your hair was the length it used to be." and like UGH. ugh ugh ugh. he needs to stop making my stomach aflutter and my heart jump into my throat, needs to stop making my cheeks go aflame with a blush, and me giddy with happiness. he makes me smile so ridiculously and I just feel... right... when I am around him.

and then I see him with Gail, and my heart shatters all over again.

[burning_sands]

I just ignore the conflict. Before too long it goes away.

BEST PLAN OF ACTION.

EVAR.

[bobman12]

Today, I had sex with a girl who asked that we call each other by our ex's names. I am confused but I really enjoyed it...

[radtastic]

i might have a thing for a guy who's kind of young for me and possibly in love with one of my best friends.  i'm also moving in five weeks, so it's a pretty inconvenient time to develop a crush.  i can't tell for sure or not, though.  i'm kind of hoping i don't, if only because it would make things easier.

[burning_sands]

YOUNGER MEN ARE THE BEST MEN.


I'm spending this semester trying to prove to myself that I'm not too old for freshmen. So far it's working.

[MiladyAlise]

YOUNGER MEN ARE THE BEST MEN.


I'm spending this semester trying to prove to myself that I'm not too old for freshmen. So far it's working.

Once I hit 19, I won't be dating under 19. Rather not date a guy I can boot for.

[burning_sands]

I'm 20 and hitting on 18 year olds.

NOT GOOD ENOUGH.

[noentusuke1]

one thing that really freaked me out this past summer was being attracted to someone whose 29.

I am 20.

what the fuck... it really kind of was like whaaaat why do I like someone who is like, almost a decade older than me? this is bizarre.

thankfully, even though he liked me as well, he was all... I have responsibility with school and such! we should not date! and has fallen off the face of the earth essentially.

[burning_sands]

uhm, I was trying to hit a 30 yo when I was 19 (I am now 20 and he is now 31 and we have agreed that I will stopthat...eventually). Age is just a number bahbeh XD

(gosh, now I sound like bobman or milky!)

[MiladyAlise]

Well, when I'm 20, they can be 19, but for this year, I will not date someone who couldn't go to the bar with me, or the liquor store. And I especially don't need to boot for the guy I'm tappin'.

Also, they have to drive. It's just a rule. I don't care if you're 19, or 25, if you don't have your license, my pants are off limits. I am not a chauffeur.