Sobbing Self Confession Thread

[PurpleHaze]

I see people all around me, surpassing me. What do I have to give to the world? Who would give a damn if I died?

[ironypills]

You did it!

I am worried that I too have nothing to offer. I am not smart, pretty or witty.

That rhyme was not intentional.

I am worried that because I am cold and defensive on the outside, no one will bother to actually know me.

....

When I was younger I accidentally killed all my pet birds and my sister doesn't know about it.

[PurpleHaze]

I can tell you are smart. I know you are pretty, for I have seen your picture. I do not know about witty as one has to meet you in person to tell.

[ironypills]

But then again, I do take all comments, good or bad, as personal attacks upon myself.

[ironypills]

In reply to what you said in the Dream Int topic:

You don't suck. You are smart. I read yourr work, it was smart.

I like talking to smart people, but they don't like talking to me, for I am not smart. Or pretty, or witty.

[PurpleHaze]

I don't think I could ever find a person I can truly confide in. Ex-girlfriends all look like stupid mistakes in retrospect.

[ironypills]

My latest ex boyfriend was a BIG  mistake.

We were best friends, then went out in secret for 8 months, so that our other best friend would not be weirded out. Then we stopped liking each other as LOVERS, and then we stopped liking each other at all.

Naturally, it was a disaster.

I don't really confide in people at all, because quite simply, I am distrustful and wary.

In a nice and happy way.

[PurpleHaze]

I had an opportunity tonight to possibly do something with a girl I met at the mall. But all of a sudden I got this pang and I felt it was so stupid and just walked away. Or maybe I'm just delusional and she was just patronizing me.

[ironypills]

Arrh patronizing. I HATE being patronized.

Then again, I can't actually think of anyone who likes it. But whatever.

Whenever boys (giggle!) ask me to do stuff I never know if they are kidding or not cause of my shitty self esteem.

Which is why I am not particularly nice.

[PurpleHaze]

I have suffered from this problem for seemingly ever. I can remember being sick and tired of girls (giggle!) seeming patronizing but not being sure since the 6th grade.

[ironypills]

I am sure they don't patronize you.

Kia kaha, stand strong.

You know what we have to do, right?

[PurpleHaze]

Drink until we wake up regretting actions taken the night before?

[ironypills]

Correct.

However, we must also bake.

Baked goods are soothing.

So we will have a regretful drunken baking party.

[PurpleHaze]

Hmmmm, this idea intrigues me.

[ironypills]

That's because it is rather intriguing.

We can make pavlova and that other cake thing with the name I have forgotten.. tiremasu? tiramanku? tyres?

This is almost as good as Dans Plan, which is currently rotting away in my introduction thread.

Oh yes.